"The little things... there's nothing bigger, is there?"

"When there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire."

True story. We all do it, don't we? Whether we're aware of it or not; whether it's emotionally, mentally, physically (PLEASE, DO NOT SET YOURSELF ON FIRE!!!!); or whether we simply shut down. At some point in all of our lives, we put ourselves through hell.

Do you ask yourself why? 
Probably. (Of course)
Quit it. 

Quit blaming yourself for failures you've experienced, witnessed, suffered, caused....(the list of descriptive words goes on forever, email me if you want a longer list). Let me list the cliche monumental statements we all hold so dearly (because sometimes we need to hear them).

"This too shall pass." 
"Life goes on."
"Shit happens."
"Time heals all wounds."
Etc, etc, etc......

I'm a firm believer in karma. I truly-with all of my shattered heart-believe the best things to happen to us are equal to the worst things we experience. 

Twisted? Probably. 
True? Absolutely.

 If you read that and thought, "Wow, Amanda is definitely as screwed up as I thought she was, probably more so."
let me put it in different, sunshiny words for you...

The worst things we experience are equal to the best things to happen to us.

Feel better? 
Hope so.

A movie in my top 5 is Vanilla Sky. And there is a quote I refer to always: 

"Just remember, the sweet is never as sweet without the sour, and I know the sour.

The sour sucks. As much as the sweet rules. Sometimes I go to the dark place in my head. What is so wrong with that? I understand no one wants to see me upset and depressed anymore. But sometimes I need to remind myself that as dark and lonely as I've felt, I don't have to be there again. Not by choice, anyhow.

It's hard not to miss what you loved with all of your heart. But doesn't that make me human?  I suppose this blog should have a point, but I'm kind of lost right now. But what is that saying?

Shit happens.

But I've experienced all of the cliche sayings. And I've proven I'll get past it...so I guess (I can't believe I'm saying this-)

This too shall pass.